Built to Last February 24, 2009
Posted by monica in my happy endings.Tags: shin
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So even with a string of petty fights over the lack of time, unreasonable pagtatampo, serious arguments about serious relationship problems, unattended obligations, bad streaks of mood swings, the spell of distance, misunderstood actions or the lack thereof, we have survived six years of love together.
The past months have not been easy, more so, loving each other still even after six years has not been that simplest thing in the world to do. But just like what I have told you many times before, I’m in, still in for the long run.
I do not want to sound all preachy about the things we did to have such feat, because there is no standard formula that anyone can follow to become the best girlfriend/ boyfriend. And we are not even half of that yet. It’s just that considering our relationship being not in the most favorable situation, we have amazingly managed to stick together for all the right reasons.
I rarely tell you things like these but now feels like the right time to elaborate why I appreciate having you in my life.
I have not been the easiest girl to deal with, with or without pms, but despite this you have been the most patient and, though it’s a little cliché and too dreamy, the guy who has been truthfully loving me in the-best-way-you-can kind of level.
I want to tell you that the everyday things you do for me are all appreciated, when you check whether I have safely arrived in the office or at home in the afternoon, the way you make lambing at the weirdest times of the day, when you have scolded me for not having loose change when I once rode a cab to MOA without you there, when you carry my bag for me, when you drive for me, when you stand my shopping habits even at your most tired days, when you let me choose the movie even though it should be your turn, when you remain calm at my nagging peak, when you fetch me at home although I can easily meet you halfway, when you give in to mama’s videoke request, when you try to compensate for all those times we missed to see each other and many more, they never go unnoticed.
And that’s my answer to the controversial question I had a few days ago. I love you for being the man you are, for never promising me a bed of roses but trying your hardest to give me one. I love you still for making me happy every single day, yes you do, even during the times when my bad hormones fight the urge to be one because I’m that complicated.
Do you know how kilig I still am when you call me sweety or when you bash my crushes and call yourself my prince charming? You understand me in ways only my closest girlfriends can do, sabi nga ni Rihanna: you’re like my lover and my best friend all wrapped into one with a ribbon on itJ.
I understand we still have a lot to go through to test the kind of relationship we have and I admit that I’m scared but knowing you are with me makes everything worth it.
So thank you very much for being my boyfriend, my Shin. Thank you for sticking it out with me for six years now and for the more years we’ll still be spending together. Thank you for taking each day as it comes, with me, not swearing forever but hoping it would be. Happy, happy 6 yearsJ!
Cause you are the sun in my universe, considered the best when we’ve felt the worst, and most of all it’s built to last…
24 February 19, 2009
Posted by monica in rants..., superstar.Tags: birthday
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Dude, pare, nag-birthday ko at isang taon nanaman ang itinanda ko. Tsk, tsk.
I didn’t expect that the birthday blues I would have this year would be stronger. I am absolutely happy about my birthday, I just can’t seem to find joy in the fact that I’m going to be one year older, one year closer to the mid-twenties phase, hmmmph!
For the past days, I can’t help but think why it was so much easier to accept that birthdays actually mean additional age back then.
I didn’t mind turning 18, 19 or even 23, in fact I was so excited to grow old fast, but now I don’t feel ok thinking that I am actually growing older and it’s faster than I have imagined. Maybe it’s just me, maybe we all have birthday blues and mine’s the shallowest but still, this birthday feels ironically sad for me.
I enjoyed the string of celebrations of course, the different dinners with my family and sets of friends, the party with the kids at Meritxell, my valentine/ birthday date with Shin and all others. But something about turning 24 just doesn’t seem right.
For one, I suddenly noticed that the conversations I have with my friends are now about serious stuff. Like when we were talking about settling down, and it wasn’t just a mere thought-of-the-moment discussion, it sounded as if it was real, like anyone of us ought to go to that path soon. We were talking about real situations, real people we are involved with not like the chats we’ve had before, not the dreamy and the young kind.
There were fears that we never seriously discussed and talking about them now in that manner got me scared because it was like admitting that those fears actually exist and must be dealt with soon.
The frustration I feel after not being able to fulfill the expectations I have for myself keeps getting heavier. And the list of expectations keeps getting longer. It’s as if I need to compensate for the number of years that I have been existing, the need to do more fulfilling stuff, make responsible decisions and “of-the-age” actions are becoming inevitable and the lack thereof just gets into my nerves.
I know I just need to relax and enjoy the whole unavoidable cycle of getting old because the journey and the experiences we get from it is the main point but the gift of having a less complicated and less serious life wouldn’t be bad too.
I am grateful to still have a long, long way to go, to be blessed with more chances in life, and that a year older might actually mean more wisdom (I hope!) and more maturity but silently, I wish to go back to that day when things were more simple, when people were more appreciative and when the view of the moon was enough to make me smile and send me off to a good sleep – those times when knowing that you’re doing well and giving the best of what you have is actually enough to get your mojo back and that no bad thing can bring you down. I wish to go back to that, even for just a day.
First stop: Boracay! February 16, 2009
Posted by monica in my happy endings.Tags: Boracay, summer
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It is definitely the start of the summer for me. Yey!
I just came back from a three day vacation with my girlfriends, Lai and Marella, in Boracay last week and even though I’m far from being done with my school obligations and still busy as hell with work, I can certainly feel the summer heat and more so, it’s calling me to come closerJ. 
I am not a big fan of Bora though because the island has been ruthlessly divirginized but I love it just the same for even after so many years since its name came to popularity, the beach remains a divine sight.
My first visit was in 2003 and after six years there have been a whole lot of changes. New resorts and more building type lodges have added to the development pollution to the point that if you’re not seeing the beach from where you are standing, you won’t realize that you’re actually in an island, miles away from Manila.
It was an early summer trip so as expected, the usual Bora crowd was nowhere in sight which made the vacation even greater as there were only a few of us sharing in the gift of the fine white sand and clear blue waters that Boracay offers. And even more, we got to enjoy the discounts that almost every establishment there was offering. We were able to experience the atv/ buggy car ride to the Mt. Luho Viewpoint, and from up there though it felt like heaven was so close, the sight below was not bad either. It was Boracay in all its glory.
The trip still comes as a reward after an exhausting first month of the year and also a birthday gift to myself. This experience remained true to my belief that the beach has a certain healing power over me that just wipes away all my anxieties and problems, well, sort ofJ.
But I’m not yet done, next stop: Puerto Princesa, Palawan!
A Meritxell Birthday February 15, 2009
Posted by monica in superstar.Tags: birthday, Meritxell
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I had the chance to celebrate my 24th birthday in an advance party at the Meritxell Foundation in Marikina last February 8, 2009. Along with two other celebrators, Tina and Wilson, we held a kiddie-themed party for the kids whom we have also visited last December and have grown to love so much. So we made them a promise that we will come back, and it came true that day.
Thanks to the love and help of my wonderful friends from GSM, the kids basked in the joy of seeing their ates and kuyas once again and being able to play with them even for just a day. Their laughter and their eyes said everything about how happy they were that day and those were enough to melt our hearts.
It was a birthday celebration like no other, as it bore greater meaning for me compared to all the other parties I’ve previously had. The acceptance, warmth and affirmation we received from the kids were gifts that would last for a long time.
Rewards! February 3, 2009
Posted by monica in my happy endings.Tags: godchildren, graduate school, imax, little asia
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Finally! January has ended and my month is here. What was that? I had like the longest January in my whole life. After taking the punishmentS for bumming around during the last weeks of last year, I’m finally done cramming and wrestling with myself, night and day to finish all the overdue requirements (though I’m still not sure how I did 
). It was a pretty rough month, when both work and school squeezed the life out of me. Lipovitan XL150 has been my best friend for the past weeks and I’m thankful to him (I think he’s a he…) for making me stay up even when it felt like I had eyes as heavy as rock.
Last weekend was like a large chocolate-covered marshmallow partnered with cheese ice cream for me. It was a very rewarding break and I certainly felt that I deserved it. I did everything in my powers to finish all the due reports, to study for my midterms, fulfill my obligations at home and to still be able to perform at work (although that last part needs a little more fixing) amidst all the gggrrrruesome challenges that came along the way. And now, here comes the nicest part, the rewards!
Best bud Jay and I finally saw each other again last Saturday. Nakakatawa na hindi kami nagkita ng isang taon dahil magkalapit lang naman ang mga bahay namin. If not for his occasional drama antics, it would have been longer. After class, I met him at SM Mall of Asia and we saw an Imax movie. It was my first time and I loved the experience! It was kind of awkward at first because the 3D glasses practically covered my face but I got used to it as the movie went on. We saw Fly Me to the Moon, an original Belgian 3D movie which featured the story of three flies’ adventure as they joined Apollo 11 in its exploration on the moon.
Sunday was family day. After mass, we just had pizza delivered at home because my godchildren were there. They never fail to make me happy, especially when every Sunday Mica asks me to go to Jollibee with them and when I would tell her that I have no money, she answers back “Baka ilibre ka namin,” hahaha! And just one look at Ethan’s face is enough to make me feel better.
We went out for dinner, to also see my sister Ena who hasn’t been home for a month now (as if city to province ang layo ng bahay namin!) because she’s been busy doing pre-graduation responsibilities. Finally, we’re talking again after almost a month of snubbing each other because of a petty fight. We had a mini-feast at Little Asia (Tomas Morato) before sending her back to the dorm. And it was funny because in almost every table someone was celebrating his/ her birthday and the staff would repeatedly sing Happy Birthday, but mind you, in Chinese!
It was such a light and fun day, I was not in a hurry to get home because I still had readings to finish or PowerPoint presentations to make. I love that feeling and I’m so happy that I’m halfway through this semester, a few more weeks and the real vacation will soon start. Oh well, not really a few more, because next week the sands of Boracay would again touch my feet! Yahoo! I love rewards! They make me speed up and work harder! Isa na lang talaga, sana magka-time na kami ni Shin. Haaay.
