story of a girl

It’s kind of surreal that in less than a day, about the same time tomorrow, I’ll be at the beach bumming my *ss off with sand under my feet and waves crashing to the satisfaction of my ears.

I haven’t had such a happy thought since weeks ago, well it seemed like ages actually. I’ve tried several times to compose a readable and decent post to describe what I’ve been through but events after events got ahead of me and now I just don’t feel like doing that anymore.

What’s important is that I’m finally back on my feet doing what I do best: being happy!

Mama’s well and her recovery’s on full speed. Although we have our moments of distress when the effects of not having a thyroid catches up on her more often that we’ve expected. I’ve learned that patience is the key because not even the greatest doctor could tell when exactly the torture will go away. And of course, buckets of prayers and truckloads of faith that the One above will take care of everything because He does that, He keeps his promises and loves us more than anyone else in this world.

I will be still, know you are God.

I am just so thankful that after the episodes of fear, doubts and tears that I’ve watched myself get into for the past weeks – just like the storm – they’re behind me now. Sabi nga ng mabuti naming kaibigan na si Echo (hahahaha!) “Katulad din ng bagyo, lilipas din yan, dadaan din yan, at aalis din yan.”  See, you could actually learn a thing or two from this guy.

Ondoy and Pepeng too, the typhoons that have wreaked havoc in the country days ago and whose aftermath we will still have to face in the coming months, have taught me a lot. First, it struck my concept of mortality big-time. Well, we all know how life is so short but it remained a Moffats song more than a cliché to me until I actually witnessed it happening – in live, national TV. The footages I saw told me how lucky I am to still be given the chance to hug my loved ones during the times when most were fighting for their lives in the middle of a raging typhoon. One couldn’t help but ask, why them, why not me?

What happened to others was enough to make me see what I’ve over and over again taken for granted.

The past two months were like learning times for me again. What my family had to go through, what Shin and I (though mostly because of me) underwent will not be wasted days and emotions. I’m keeping all the lessons I’ve picked up along the way and try my bestest (kung merong ganun) to apply them.

Only one thing’s sure though: God is good, all the time.

Oh, I feel like dancing

It’s foolishness, I know

But when the world has seen the light

They will dance with joy

Like we’re dancing now